I have learned a great deal from the challenging times I experienced over the past 15 months. The lesson most profoundly is the importance of self-love. And the positive implications it has had on every individual I come into contact with. Self Love is hard when times are hardest. And when very little explanation is available. But, through Self Love and internal forgiveness, I was able to overcome many dark days.
Self Love was very hard for me as a new mother with serious medical challenges; because I could not be there for my newborn baby, the way I wished, dreamt and hoped for, and it was out of my control. My feelings and desires to be better came unanswered, my wishes to do more was beyond my capacity and at times it still is. I had to love myself through it, to accept it, to forgive myself for my shortcomings. And take pride for the little I could do, no matter how trivial an attempt it felt like to me.
